01.09.2003

<september>

i woke up with a cheery 'happy 1st september!' sms on my mobile.
as I made my way to the bathroom, i found out what that loud 'thump' sound I heard last nite from the bedroom was all about.

my plant committed suicide. the entire trunk broke and all that was left in the pot was a little stump.

it was a bloody sight.

i think it must have known winter is coming and did not bear the thought of going through it.then again, i better check if there are some pesticides in the plant before they start munching * my * trunk in my sleep.

before i start getting all depressed about the loss of the other living creature in my apartment, i revert my thoughts to all those things about said about death signifying the beginning of something new. my last plant died when i moved out of my last apartment. a friend of mine dreamt that her mother passed away when she was having her first-born. gypsies say that having Death show up in their tarot card reading is not always a bad thing. etc.

well, summer is winding down and so will all those outdoor bbq parties under the moonlight. i had a great summer. 3 weeks of vacation at home and in London. met some cool people. discovered some great outdoor sights around beijing. learnt chinese chess. great time on my birthday. have my new Scrabble set (and have been winning on it too!). swam in the ocean. postcards from Turkey. heart warming long distance calls. new Spanish vocabulary. discovered rock climbing. a new cousin. laughed a lot. finished new paintings. purged some very bad vibes from my life. made a wine glass sing. and most importantly, plenty to time to take stock of my life. there's no such thing as eternal happiness, but it seem so simple to be happy.

august ended nicely with an old friend visiting for the weekend. with some other friends, we took a long long walk on the great wall. it was beautiful up there. i made a wish upon a shooting star. that was my first shooting star wish. i hope it comes true, then i will start believing in santa claus too.

i wonder what lies ahead.

i sound like i'm cocooned in my little bubble of weelim's world. but I guess one has to find her comfort zone lest the entire world crumbles down.

one year in china and still kind of surviving. i thought about going home. but someone sent me this quote and that spoke to me:

"i would rather entreat thy company to see the wonders of the world abroad than,
living dully sluggardized at home, wear out thy youth with shapeless idleness."

from "two gentlemen of verona" by wm. shakespeare

i remember writing a year ago about stretching my limits. i'm pretty proud of myself for having gone through some of the shittiest moments and still pretty much taking life easy. going to the hidden tree for a birthday party later. i think i am going to buy myself a margarita…