15.07.2002

<feeling foolish>

i am sick and tired of being taken for granted all the time

i don't want to be NICE anymore

i don't want to be generous anymore because i always seem to be giving in and not being reciprocated

i don't want to be UNDERSTANDING and always making excuses for people who don't seem to appreciate

'maybe she forgot to send me the report cos she's always feeling so sick' (yah, but i NEED that report to do MY report on time, and you jolly well know it!)

'maybe he doesn't call cos timing is inconvenient'

'maybe they didn't thank me for the tickets cos we are so busying catching up. sure they appreciate'

'she's not trying to hurt me deliberately... maybe i just didn't explain my situation properly'

yeah right! i must be the biggest idiot in the world!

and telling them will only make me seem so petty

lose-lose situation

it's about time people realise that if they like to be nice to, SO DO I!

before i turn into a horrible nasty manipulative bitch like some people i know